First off, thank you for taking the plunge, it's much appreciated.
All quotes by Soulsurvivor.
The diamond hard body being referred to is actually a state of existence that can happen within a human form when all conditions have been met.
Strange this. When Lizzie posted about the diamond body, I read 'diamond' and thought 'diamond'. and it made no sense to me. When I read your words I read 'diamond' and thought 'crystal' which did make sense. Aristotle, for one, mentions crystal spheres surrounding, for example, the planets. Unortunatley I can't find Aristotle's writing on this though I have looked. Kevin's posts in his 'Dowsing and the Lattice' thread set me off on this track also. I would recommend you reading them, if you have not already.
With regard to 'all conditions being met' I would suggest that the conditions involve activating all the chakras. If nothing else it would make sense with regard to the Buddhists and the alchemists in Lizzie's post. Note that there is a lot of mental preparation involved in these
two disciplines. I will return to this below.
I was constantly in a state of positive happiness. No negative was allowed by me. I could keep it on the perimeter of my reality. I had that power to do that.
Perhaps this was not the correct way to go about it? I am thinking harmony, balance and yin-yang here. This, I think, is where the mental preparation comes in. All these various disciplines or traditions, be it Buddhism, alchemy, Gnosticism, Sufism, etc, etc, all take place
within a philosophsy or paradigm - the practitioner has an understanding of the 'bigger picture'. You seem to have gained access to the practical side without doing the theory, if you will.
I could hear the orchestra of nature and all around me. I was a part of that.
Pythagoras and the music of the spheres springs to mind here. Also the choirs of angels which are frequently mentioned in the Christian tradition. As the Kybalion states: All is vibration.
I know that I have an inner self, a darker body of form, that has made itself known, not only to me, but to a room full of medical personnel.
Firstly I would love to know what the medicos made of this. Referring back to the negative and positive passage, above, I'm thinking harmony, balance and yin-yang. Positive and negative; light and dark, are the two ends of the same stick. They cannot, in this physical world, exist the one without the other.
Dark and negative are/were the origional condition of creation, at least according to every tradition I have read. (Potential must antecede its realisation; thought precedes the deed; the mental is prior to the physical).
In no way can I ever believe that I'm so different from any other human. It is distressing to me to consider that I am different.
Here we have another paradox of the physical world. We are all the same, only different. To stick with the musical analogy above, we are all variations on a theme.
Much has been written about how we are all connected and about collective consciousness and the like. My current understanding is that this is misleading. The 'message' (wrong word) I am getting at the moment is that we are here to be individuals; to think and act as our individual
conscience (or intuition or consciousness) tells us.
The late, great, Indian philosopher, U.G. Krishnamurti said that we are just the thought of a thought. All these, or, all we, thoughts are taking place in the same mind. If that sounds a little grim, think of a chandelier and we being the individual crystal dangley bits.
Incidentally, U.G. went through some very interesting(?) physical changes during his Enlightenment.
It's important that I continue for now because I will know when to let others know to move out of the way of a cataclysmic event that's coming here to my part of the world. I am not a prophet. I simply have memory.
I would advise caution when telling people something they might not want to hear. They are more likely to tear you to pieces than to thank you.
What you call memory is what Plato would call amenesis or unforgetting. It is something I too experience though in a different manner. Mine comes through thinking, in the sense of deep thinking, contemplation, medition etc. This is one of the reasons I bang on about using the mind instead of the brain.
It was ongoing, nonstop bliss.
Hmm. Again, I see this as related to the light/dark, pos/neg thing above. You can have too much of a good thing and all that. I have a different though related problem with bliss.
Sometimes when thinking I get blissed out and it is often almost too much to bear. The other side of this coin, which I call empathy, is that I can feel (what seems to me to be) all the pain and sorrow of the world. I get overcome by a sense of utter sadness at the waste (of human potential) and the pointlessness of it all (the waste, not the world). The stupid people doing stupid things to other stupid people.
As Michel De Montaigne put it: you may be installed on the most exalted throne in the world, but you are still sat on your own arse.
First one, then two black triangle craft drifted silently in and hovered over my neighbor's roof viewing me.
I too have read a lot about these things. My personal jury is still out as to what they are. I would however, not be too quick to judge them as bad or hostile. You said that you felt them to be feeding of your emotions. Might I humbly and with respect, suggest that this is your
subjective opinion? I don't doubt for a moment that this is what you genuinely felt. Could it be that they were monitoring your emotions? Perhaps it was you who was 'broadcasting' and they had come to see who this was in Kentucky who was doing it?
...I had a small pin stroke next to the pineal gland.
Interesting that it was near the pineal gland. This being the top (crown) chakra which is associated with knowingness, charisma, awareness, higher self, visionary, etc. The negative side of it is associated with depression, alienation, mental illness, confusion, senility, etc.
So perhaps if those craft were connected to your stroke it was to save you from the problems. This is one of the reasons for the mental training and discipline I mentioned above. You had access to a lot of power there.
I had a series of dreams that showed me the major events that were/are very personal and specific to me and those I love. I already know what to expect and I know that I cannot change anything. I've tried. Hasn't yet worked.
Again, this may be one of the reasons why it stopped. The dreams or what you saw in them might have become too much for you to handle.
I used to be religious. But for personal reasons, I'm not at all religious now. I've had to drop every belief I've ever been taught and start over because nothing about "me" can be explained using any belief system I can find.
My definition of religion is state-controlled spirituality. I am somewhat opposite to you here, as I came into this with 40-odd years of hard-core atheism behind me. I originally got into this through studying ethics (moral philosophy) but kept getting bounced to metaphysics which I, originally, had no time for.
I would argue that every belief system can explain what has happened to you, if for no other reason than they are all the same at base. You have stated the problem and the solution to this. You have been 'taught' and now are learning for yourself. The word education comes
from a root which means to draw out. Nowadays, education means to cram in.
It's the only theory that has an outside chance of explaining what we as humanity are coming into...evolution.
I agree about the (non-Darwinian) evolution. The Maya and the Hopi on your continent, Sri Yukteswar from India and the western Age of Aquarius all point to us moving onto the ascending cycle. And it all seems to point to more mental and less physical.
I used my imagination to avoid the fear and the pain. I imagined I was a princess and everyone was seeing to my every need.
I have taken this quote out of order as I wanted to deal with it last. The word 'princess' is the key here methinks. I'm an expert on princesses (I have two of my own). You will, I'm sure, be familiar with the fairy tale Sleeping Beauty. This story, as they all are, is chock-full of symbolism. For the sake of brevity and to keep us close to your experiences, I'll skip most of it and concentrate upon the main characters or actors. (I'm also cobbling together several versions).
Sleeping Beauty. Female, maiden, asleep in glass or crystal 'coffin'.
Intrepid Hero. Male, rides horse and wields a sword or lance.
Sleeping Beauty represents the soul (or highrer-self). The soul is female in virtually every traditon. Maiden because it is pure and because it is unused or untouched. Female equals potential (untapped). The coffin/casket represents the body. The soul is a prisoner of the physical body (e.g.Plato). It is the soul which is crystaline but myths and fairy tales often invert one or more things to make you think.
The hero is male because he represents action and realisation of potential. The horse represents the physical, material aspects of the world (you can't get much more solid than a horse). The hero rides the horse; he controls it, is its master. The rider is also, in effect, off
the ground and nearer to the heavens. The (short) sword and the lance are both piercing weapons (as opposed to slashing or bludgeoning) which pierce the illusion (the maya of the Hindus). He awakens the princess with a kiss. The kiss can be viewed as either breathe, love, or speech.
I'll go with the last two. Love = heart and speech = talking (in this case to yourself).
The dragon (or serpent) in these allegories usually represents either matter or spirit (Fire, the element). Given that nobody learns anything from this critter, I'll go for matter.
Okay, so where does that leave the Princess of Kentucky? I think that somehow, during your illness you awoke, or made contact with, your soul.
I'm guessing that your experiences in that hospital bed made you re-evalute your priorities and values to a greater or lesser extent.
Only you know what was going on inside you at that time so I'll say no more and let you figure it out for yourself. The only advice I would give (or can give) is to talk to yourself, that is ask yourself (from the heart, not as an intellectual exercise) and listen for the answer - it will come. Maybe not in the way you anticipated or from the direction you were expecting and it may not be the answer you want, but it will come. It does with me and I'm not different either.
I hope these witterings give you some food for thought.